3:01 a.m. - 2018-12-16
Guys who don’t commit must have some sort of anxiety/depression. Like, they feel like they are gonna die sooner than they think or being held down will make them die sooner.
I know The Reset Button is going out and trying to meet someone the way I met him. But I don’t just meet people like him.
Keeps me up at night wondering how I got in this mess. Early morning 1:30-4:30, I toss and turn trying to understand why I’m letting this happen to me again.
Maybe it is different, maybe it will be? If only I could go out and erase him in one night, the way he erased my despair in one week. The way he’s erasing my hope now. Maybe I can do it. Maybe.
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